Oh little one..

I tried to reach you today, again. & your dad woudnt let me. He even told me to never contact you again. This isn't right & I will continue to pray for you.

Happy Easter my son.

To love you is an understatement.

Hey baby..

You know how Mama has her eyes closed & you kiss my eyelids & when I say, "Ow!" you laugh?

Well Mama thinks of you. Mama hopes for you. Mama gives you strength. Mama prays.

Little do you know that I pray for you often. I pray you're eating healthy & are fearless whether I'm around or not. You mean so much to me. I love when you grab me & won't let go. I love that when I'm sleepy, you're aware I DO want to spend time with you, but due to exhaustion I can barely keep up with your energy. I love that you then decide you're going to take care of me. You lay or sit next to me & pat your chest/lap & say, "Mama, c'mere. Lay down. Tired Mama."

I'm crying.

Sigh.

Half the time I don't even understand what you're saying because well, you don't speak clearly. Sometimes I just understand that last word & it helps me figure out the rest. I don't baby you. I don't goo goo ga ga & according to my mom, I'm cold. I'm never affectionate. But you know me, don't you. You know I loooovvveeee our kisses. I love the time u take to place your cute set on my cheek & forehead. One of the best kisses is when you're feeling goofy/silly..

I just know that everyone else can judge me & the time I spend away from you but you & I will always have our moments where nothing can interrupt our love & no one else matters. I hope you never forget those moments, Love. God, I pray..

Baby, I hope your dad doesn't give you a lot of candy. I know how much you love it-that, you got from your daddy because Mama doesn't have a sweet tooth. I just know that last night I knew that you would be hungry & he told me that you wanted candy the rest of the night. I became very concerned but just let God hold me & my worries.

You will be fine. No matter what.

Now, if only I had enough faith to believe that.

I'm working on it.

Happy Birthday 4·5·6!!

He was happily surprised..

to see fish being a part of our family now.

Priceless

So Andrew has a tendency of wanting his picture taken in thee most unexpected times & this time he looked at it & said, "Mack. Mack & Mater." Then he smiled. Can I just say... remember when we couldn't look at our pictures, lol Remember our cameras where we had to wait for 1) the pictures to all be taken then 2) for mom to take em to get developed?? Wow @ me just remembering a disposable camera I took to Rite-Aid over a yr ago & never picked up.

For The Love Of You, Andrew

Drifting on a memory
Ain't no place I'd rather be, no,
Than with you
Loving you

Lovely as a ray of sun that touches me when the morning comes

My love and me, ooh

Enchanted with your touch
It seems to me we can sail together in and out of misery

I wanna be living for the love of you
All that I'm giving is for the, for the love of you

Paradise I held within
Can't feel insecure again
You're the key
Oh, this I see, this I see, ooh
Now I'm there and I lose my way
Using words to try to say what I feel
I feel that love is free
I know that love is free

I just wanna be giving all my love to you
Each and every day

You know that I'm living for you

Oldies but Goodies

This one from Superbowl Sunday. The Bush & Polamalu jersey.

I like to call this the "Mama Said Knock You Out" pic O:-D