Merry Christmas to You!

Andrew is sleep by 9p every night, gets a nap in between the times of 12p & 3p. Yesterday, of course I was letting him stay up. He woke up from his nap around 4p so I knew he wouldn't be ready to lay down @ 8:30p. I was @ work @ 8p and wasn't expecting to see him until Christmas Day.

My mom & Carlos surprised me & for SOME reason COMPLETELY forgot about Andrew. That sounds wrong. I mean, since I know he is sleep around midnight I didn't expect to see him but if my mom & Carlos are both @ my job of course Andrew would have to come through! ANYWAY: FIRST! I was surprised and I remember saying, "Oh my God," while staring at the front door. They came in, my mom, gave me a big hug and said, "We came to wish you a Merry Christmas. Te traje a tu hijo...." I almost cried when Andrew ran into my arms with a huge smile on his face.

*tearing up again*

I hugged him, closed my eyes, held tightly & said, "Merry Christmas Andrew!!"

*tears running down my face now (not then)*

He kept holding onto me, tighter than I was holding him.

I enjoyed every millisecond of that hug. Hope to never forget it.

Not Quite Like This Before

Ok, most of my followers (LOL) know that I took a trip to Mexico from the 14th-21st in the state of Jalisco in the town my family is from: beautiful Barra de Navidad.

I didn't miss a beat when I arrived tho. Soon as I got back, started handlin' business & got back into it (workin').

When I walked into my place tho, I was filled with happiness. Before me, were stockings hung up, Christmas decorations everywhere, pictures of my brothers, mom, son & myself in frames arranged neatly w/a slight diagonal look. And the tree.

Oh, behold. The Christmas tree.

Couldn't believe my eyes. Couldn't believe this was what was waiting for me. My spirit was out of control! I hadn't seen & felt this in years. Family sounded so great & I was incredibly grateful!

Although I will be working today and won't be getting home til about 3:10am (Christmas Day) & will be working tomorrow afternoon until the 26th I feel good. Thank God I'm working.

With that said, Merry Christmas Eve everybody!

And if you don't have the Christmas/Holiday spirit, then celebrate Festivus.. For the rest of us.

It's a win-win. Ha.

This Hit SO CLOSE to Home

Mom Plays Two Roles

I feel it deep down
wished for more smiles then frowns
wanna be called pops, for that you get no props
No park, no ball, go get, go call.
Provide, that's what you re supposed to do,
anything "Dad" related was a joke to you.
Get smacked, get yelled at..that's dad
that's what he's good at.
No hard feelings, not many memories..
my future with my kids, not really worrying me.
I learned to ball, I learned to stunt,
I learned how to lay-up, I learned how to bunt.
Looking in the mirror, it's a splitting image...
Life with him, wouldnt want to re-live it.
More smiles, less tears, no pain, no blood smears.
Had to get advice elsewhere, kept feelings bottled up,
Felt like what I was doing was never good enough.
Good at striking, good at fighting...not so great with words
emotions were stifling.
Im daddy, Im brother, I provide...
No daddy, no Big Brother...Ill survive.
Get in trouble, make mistakes
Erase them mentally, raise the stakes.
Get better, move forward
Make mami proud, no harm, no foul.
I may look like you,
doing everything in my power not to be like you.
I will stay true, to that word that bothers,
unlike you, I'll become a great father.

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Can't please 'em all..

I lost a follower :'(

So long Andrea.

Funky Fresh Dressed Impressed

Ready to Party!

Entourage

On HBO. And in my living room.

Cupcake Destruction Pt. 2

Yummy. Candy.

Cupcake Destruction Pt. 1

Mm. Mm.

More Joy

Andrew's cousin Asia makes an appearance, Ava once more & even an orange
cupcake (sup D).

Andrew & Ava

(on Thanksgiving Day, the cousins were inseparable).

Father & Son

To be held, with a feeling of security. At the same time, feeling strength and empowerment from his father holding him. Letting him know that everything would be okay. That he's been waiting for him for 9 months. And that he's so happy to see him. Feeling so loved. So calm, quiet, enjoying his daddy's touch/voice.

Such a little being. Miraculous as well as unbelievable entrance to this world. Never would I have thought that I could love a human being so much the INSTANT I laid eyes on you. How soft your skin is, and your smell, so pleasant. Look at your hair, your eyes, you looking at me. Remember when I read the first book you've ever heard? Goodnight, Moon. And as soon as I finished reading those last words you let out a yawn. And closed your eyes. As if, YOU KNEW, it was the end. So intelligent, you knew, you understood. I love you. I'm so proud of you.

Look, Daddy. Look. I can play. I can jump. I can talk too. I walk, I skip, I run, I'm fast. I no longer just lay there and look at you while closing and opening my mouth without making a sound. I interact, I respond, I reply, I understand emotion a bit better. I have style, I recognize fashion, I show off when my mommy buys me new forces. :-) Shoes, shoes! Look, shoes!! See my hat Daddy? Mommy says I'm handsome. She says, she's proud of me too. But I get angry sometimes. She doesn't like when I don't listen to her. She doesn't like when I scatter my toys around the living room. She REALLY doesn't like coming home from work and seeing that she can't see the floor anymore. Sometimes I don't want to pick up my toys (I don't like clean-up time). But when I see my mom start picking them up, I help her. But not always. I like to wrestle. I like to cuddle, but not always. It's up to me when. It's up to me when you get a kiss from me too. I don't know. Just how I go about things, that's all. I miss you Daddy. Kiss. Daddy. Kiss.

Thanksgiving Day

I'm purposely late in posting anything regarding Thanksgiving because I believe that one should be thankful every single day. Not just the 4th Thursday of November. My family never had Thanksgiving 'Day' as part of our traditions so it doesn't mean anything to me. However Andrew's dad's side of the family celebrates it and each relative makes a dish and shares with the rest. It eventually becomes this monstrosity of good food. Stuff that is especially good for your soul. Andrew was definitely a part of that this year. And I heard he had a great time.

These are pictures of his way to Temecula. I know there was A LOT of traffic.

I love traffic. It's fun to make eye contact with strangers after you danced and sang a song like no one was listening/watching. I feel I make their day.